I’m on a mission. I’ve always known I was meant to do something important. When I was younger, I simply thought I was going to be very successful. Now I know I’m meant to do something greatly important for the world. And the longer I think about that, the more I realize that that however motivating it is, it doesn’t make me unique. I assume every single person has at it’s highest purpose something that greatly benefits the world, but that many people simply don’t listen to that call.
I’ve known parts of my mission of such a long time that I have trouble pinpointing the justifications for this belief. One of the first things that come to mind is that I feel like I’ve always been lucky. So lucky, that I want to say guided. No matter how turbulent my mind on the inside, on the outside everything always seemed safe and supported, however financially recklessly I followed my heart. Ranging from selfless parents and the benevolent social structures of my country of birth to lucky wins and good fortune, I haven’t had a lot of money growing up, but I have always felt at least secure enough to be able to make the decision to spend a good portion of my time on the luxury of self-realization, which as we’ll see later, is how I can best serve the world.
“That which supports life is supported by life, survival is thus effortless, and giving and receiving are one and the same.” – David Hawkins
And not just have I always felt as if there was a baseline of support in the form of physical security, I also have gotten an incredible amount emotional and spiritual guidance. It’s amazing how many people have decided to help me, from teachers to coaches and from gurus to fellow seekers, for free or barter, without me asking for it. It’s almost as if they see me, not ego-me, but through me into my heart, recognize my mission, and decide they want to support it. I’m still blown away every time it happens. I’m struggling to find words that can express how grateful I am, yet I also know that it isn’t really about me. It’s about the cause, and it’s mind-boggling at this point how many people spontaneously decide to join this never yet verbally expressed cause.
Because the specifics of it are still unclear to me. I don’t walk around saying I’m on a big mission (until this very blog post). The few details I have of what I believe to be my purpose have come to me either in the form of epiphanies or as knowledge I simply always seemed to have had.
What I know about it is this:
• It involves guiding, teaching or coaching. Something profound. (I used to think it would be something philosophical, now I’m inclined to think it’s something spiritual, but it’s important to mention here that I’m not attached to the details. It will show itself when needed.)
• It’s of great importance for the wellbeing of the planet and its people.
• It involves awakening and compassion
These facts I’ve always known. The following things I’ve realized later on:
• The moment supreme of it is not meant to happen anytime soon. I now imagine myself to be in my 50’s.
• In order to serve my highest purpose, the best thing I can do right now is to learn as much as I can. Self-realization and personal growth have therefore been more than a strong passion; they’re part of my mission.
Now add to this a secret dream of mine that I’ve always wanted to become a wise professor, a guru (I even pictured myself with epic beard) or a benevolent queen, and I have have an interesting idea on where this is going.
I always have been interested in self-realization. It started with a self-help interest in how being happy works, and ended up in a genuine belief that enlightenment in this current life is possible. But until recently, I thought I did this for me, and that my dream to do something for the world was a separate one. When I read Power vs Force by Dr. David Hawkins, however, I realized that both by working on my own enlightenment, I’m also working towards fulfilling my secret mission, which I now know is directly related to my other dream of making the world a better place.
Let me explain: When you look at Hawkins’ map of consciousness, there are two major barriers. The level of Courage is the first in which one becomes personally empowered, and the level of Love is where happiness of others emerges as the main motivational force. I recently temporarily crossed through great divide into the realm of love after being ‘stuck’ on Reason for many years. As Dr. Hawkins explains; “[the level of Love] has the capacity to lift others and accomplish great feats because of its purity of motive. [It] is misunderstood to be an emotion; actually, it is a state of awareness, a way of being in the world, a way of seeing oneself and others.” Furthermore, simply being in the presence of someone in the highest levels literally raises your own vibrations. In other words, high-energy people counterbalance the negative effect of low-energy people. Therefore, “to become more conscious is the greatest gift anyone can give to the world.”
So my journey of self-realization is how I live up to my highest potential to serve the world..
While I’m typing this I wonder if I sound arrogant or pretentious. For some reason it was very important to me to come out about this, or, as I wrote in my newsletter, ‘to step into my power’. It was as much my hope to inspire you as it was my goal to finalize for myself my pledge to a life of service. So don’t think I’m feigning to have it all figured out. But whatever I do know is enough for me to have formed my life around it for a quite some years now. And yes, having the feeling of being on a mission does feel pretty fucking great. It is empowering yet humbling, motivating yet liberating. It doesn’t matter if the details are vague, the idea is at least clear enough to help me make both daily choices and bigger life decisions. I can easily ask myself ‘is opportunity X in alignment with my mission?’ or ‘how will relocation Y benefit my self-realization?’ It provides confidence, guidance, and determination. I’m beyond grateful to know this much about my purpose.
Now I hear you asking, how can I find mine? The answer is simple: Surrender. “Not my will, but Thine be done.” Seriously, give up your small-self ego-you ideas on what material pleasures will deliver you happiness, and let the Universe decide for you. I am currently not where I thought I would end up. There are all sorts of reasons to see my time in Wichita as being stuck somewhere unpleasant (love ya ICT), but this is, like everything once you start following your heart, the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I promise you, if you ask, and you’re truly receptive to a response, even if that’s something else than your current job in sales you just worked so hard for, you will get an answer.
“We make a brilliant move or decision, or say exactly the right thing at the right moment, without quite knowing why.” – David Hawkins.
Follow your heart and let go and let God are synonyms. It’s one and the same. Ontologically speaking, faith and confidence are the same, for the source within is the same as the Source of all. Pick the language you’re comfortable with, and know that you’re divinely guided. Surrender.
→ How? Start by saying ‘I surrender’ out loud. Every day. Pray. Meditate. Set the intention. Dedicate your next walk or workout to letting go of your attachments to your life goals. Imagine what it would be like to just trust that you’ll be guided. Start making choices from love, and eliminating choices based on fear. Maybe read my post ‘How to get rid of your fear of the future’. Trust the Universe. Let go.